A year ago yesterday everything was honky dory... We were new parents, exhausted from being up every two hours but we were happy to have a little bundle to be up with every two hours at all ... A seemingly healthy newborn to be up with ever two hours. We couldn't imagine that anything could ago wrong with our new little paradise. The problems I had during pregnancy threatening Liam's life, the hole in this little heart all were healed and gone, fleeting memories by a year ago yesterday. Sometimes I wish I could live in that day forever....
Then the morning came, a year ago today, that rocked our perfect world for what we thought was the worst....
That's the first time we heard the word "blind".
That peaceful morning we headed to my work to pick up my pay check and show off our little boy to all my coworker friends. As we passed him around and everyone ooohhh and ahhhed over him, one of my friends and bosses, APN Karen Martin, approached to see our little bundle. She'd seen him before at his one month check up where he had checked out in perfect health, but that was weeks prior. As she swaddled him, chatting with him sweetly I relaxed and sat down for a moment to catch up with my friends. I watched as she waved a stuffed teddy bear in front of his little face, watched as her face turned to a look of bewilderment, then concern, then very grim.
In the wourlwind that followed over the next few hours I can recall every single moment in great detail....
My bosses examining Liam's eyes, trying to get him to track toy after toy, standing over his crib for HOURS trying to get him to SEE me standing there crying over him, endless praying, begging, pleading ... The feeling that my heart could explode, the feeling that I could just collapse from the grief and worry, the questioning my every decision during pregnancy, the worry that I had caused this, the numbness, my family members hugs, their tears, every text message I received, every phone call... Counting swirls on the ceiling as we try to sleep cuddled next to our baby boy....the words "I'm not sure Liam can see anything, Amy" clarification "there's a chance he may be....blind."
Blind.
BLIND.
B-L-I-N-D.
That word rang in my head over and over again the entire day and continued through the next week and months as we plunged into doctor appointment after doctor appointment. Until finally, months later, we started to see the light at the end of the tunnel. We found friends, found a community, found peace and found our niche. We spent long hours talking and praying each night and are firmly convinced that God didn't give us Liam for no important reason, he gave us Liam, Liam's condition, so that we would take action. We never want any other family to feel as lost as we did, helpless in helping their child. It's an awful feeling when you hear that your child is blind and you cannot do anything for him or get anything that could help him due to your finances.
So our solution?
It's been building for along time, it started out as a whisper at family dinner, then began growing into something larger, something we found our passion in......our family's calling.
LIAMS Project.
Lending Individuals with Albinism More Support.
Because that's what we want to do, give them more support....financially, physical, emotional, social, all of it.... Support to be independent, to have vision to it's fullest potential, because that's what we want for Liam. We don't have all the answers yet but we do know that these parents, like us, need help to be able to provide all the devices, aids, specialists, surgeries, glasses, and sun protection that their children desperately need, and we want to help.
Yes a year ago today marks a lot of bad news and painful memories that are forever burned into our brain, but it also marks something else as well.... A new family and community in our Albinism friends, a new strength as parents, a new respect for parents of special needs children, a renewed heart for the hurting and disabled, a united family for Liam and for a better cause, but most importantly it marks the beginning of our family's passion.....the passion to help those in the albinism community with everything we've got, and fight along side them for our childrens' sight.
ISAIAH 42 : 16
"I will lead the blind along an unfamiliar way; I will guide them down paths they have never traveled. I will turn the darkness in front of them into light, and level out the rough ground. This is what I will do for them. I will not abandon them."
These frames were so easy and cheap to make! I purchased $5 photo frames at Walmart....
And after removing all the mat, glass and backing, I painted them blue with few streaks of dark brown mixed in to my paint-careful not to mix the colors more than necessary. (Also, dipping a cloth in dark brown paint/stainer and strategically rubbing it along with the wood grain were needed does the trick as well!) 
After I got the effect I wanted with my paints, I attached the wires along the back of the frame. 
